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why am i still alive someone needs to kill me i am so pathetic where is mila bye
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[12 Mar 2003|05:06pm] |
Everyone thinks Christina is this amazingly beautiful pop singer, which without a doubt she is. But pop culture suggests that just because she shows a little tit here and has hair extentions and dark eye shadow that makes her beautiful. I think I see Christina's beauty without all of the make up and fake hair and fancy clothes or lack there of. Christina is beautiful when she is in a tee shirt, sweat pants, sneakers, hair up, no make up, nothing to hide her face. That face I used to stare at for hours on end and just stare, watching, taking in her smell and holding her close to me. We'd watch TV and I knew everything was going to be okay. She is beautiful when she is just Chrissy. The Chrissy I used to know. The Chrissy I used to date and hold and love. I miss her. It's going to be hard to get along without her.
I love it when I make you laugh. Those cheeks curl in and you show me your pearly whites and I almost melt at the awe of your beauty. I love you so much it hurts and I can't stand to think about it any longer. This is the last time I am going to tell you. I love you. I have to let go of you. I need to let go of you. I need to get on with my life. You're happy. It's time for me to try to find myself. With or without you.
I love you. I always will. If there is one thing I can tell you it's this: nothing matters, Christina. Only love.
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I hate it when girls have the intention of breaking up with you, but then wait for you to say something and give reasons as to why you feel the relationship is not going to work, and then turning it on you to make it look like you're the bad guy. Mila broke up with me. I love her. I trust her. The end. If she wants to flirt with other guys then by all means go ahead. I'm not going to stop her. But I'm not going to sit around and watch my own girlfriend throw herself all over other guys and shut up about it and lie to myself saying 'oh it's fine topher mila loves you and she's only flirting because it's second nature to her'. Whatever. I'm moving out and moving on.
I'm going to go visit Christina this weekend in NY. Watch her do SNL and just do some catch up. Even though we are ex's she's still one of my closest friends.
And at this point, I'm so done with women.
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[08 Mar 2003|02:14pm] |
Happy Belated, Laura baby. What I got you can't be seen in a picture, it's unconditional love. Isn't that enough?
I love you even though you hate me a lot. Hope you had a great one.
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[27 Feb 2003|08:04pm] |
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RIP Fred Rogers. God I'll miss that man. It's sad to hear that one of the people you've watched for so long as a kid passes away. Life is so fucking short.
I'm going out with Mila. I know, I know. Shocking. It's crazy right now. I moved in with her and Chuck and all we do is sleep and when we aren't sleeping we're well doing other stuff. I really like Mila a lot. She's a great girl. Known her for a while now and we're getting so close. I love holding her. Just holding her and watching TV is like heaven to me. I finally feel like I have a place now. Someone to hold and love and be loved in return. It's a great feeling. Borris peed on me. Stupid dog.
This is short but what do you expect. Hi I love April Lavine.
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[18 Feb 2003|11:30pm] |
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i hate everyone especiallly women right now. all girls suck except for laura because i still love her and i want her to marry me.
whatever bye.
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[18 Feb 2003|02:57am] |
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Let's do a weekend recap, shall we?
On Saturday night I felt like a completely different person. I came back, updated, and have been on AIM ever since talking to numerous people about my dissappearance and how much Mila wants to kill me. Laura is back and I am convinced that the only reason she returned is because of me. So, unfortunately, you all lose. Hi Laura. Welcome back from Thailand or wherever the hell you were. Continuing with the events on Saturday night/early Sunday morning, I will admit that I told Christina how wrong I felt about leaving her and running away from our relationship. I'd be lying if I said I didn't love her still and she has told me that she still loves me as well. But she's with John. Die. Anyway.
I schedualed a date with Elisha for tonight but we just ended up staying at her place. We talked for a while, then we stopped talking. She's a great girl with a wonderful personality. Sleeping next to her, with her in my arms, it was great. It felt nice, warm. I really like her and I look forward to getting to know her better. Mandy don't worry I won't steal her from you every day. Before the date with Elisha I paid Christina a house call. We talked for a little bit but mostly fighted over stupid crap that no one fights about but us. I kissed her. It was sort of a spur of the moment type deal but I'll never do it again. She really doesn't want to be with me and I can probably see why. I'm too much of a man for her to handle and my smile makes her weak in the knees. Duh. In all seriousness, I believe Christina and I are going to just stay friends. Good friends. And that's fine with me.
I'm at Elisha's place now because, well, heh. I'm going to go cuddle with her some more. I could get used to this. Later.
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[16 Feb 2003|01:34am] |
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Why do I keep doing that?
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[21 Jan 2003|01:01am] |
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Sorry about that.
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[14 Dec 2002|01:29am] |
Dude. Topher will bust a cap in your ass if you hit on my girl. That's all I have to say about that. Except I have no caps and I'd probably just sick Ashton on you. So take that.
Anyways, My absence has been great because I have not only Christmas presents to buy Christina, but birthday presents as well. FIVE DAYS PEOPLE. Five days.
Uh, yeah. Basically I've been doing nothing but worshipping my girlfriend and also competing in various sand-castle building contests in LA county. Don't ask, I've been bored. Ashton helps. He wears tight shorts. That's the extent of his helping.
Also, what up Mila, Laura, Wilmer, and Danny who is even more MIA than I was.
Booyah, I'm out.
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[02 Oct 2002|02:13pm] |
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Laura and Natalie, come over again anytime you'd like in those bikinis. The hijacking is much more fun that way. ;)
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[25 Sep 2002|08:20pm] |
yo.
yes i'm still alive, but my life is busy busy busy.
and extremely hard. i mean i go to work all day and fondle, i mean, act with the lovely ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) prepon and then go home and do other things that will remain un-named with my way too hot and amazing for me girlfriend christina_a. dude, life is sooooooo hard. i need a vacation. I mean did you SEE Laura as a catholic school girl. and have you SEEN the previews for Christina's video.
My life is fucking perfect. Finally.
Anyways, uhhh, like dude, Ashton, call me so we can play some b-ball. i'm getting a gut. Bring the little foriegn boy with you.
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[29 Aug 2002|11:25pm] |
I'm about a half hour early, but-
Happy Birthday to the sauciest blonde I know (after Christina, that is):
c_diaz
30? You don't look a day over 19, sweetheart. Have a good one.
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[28 Aug 2002|09:21pm] |
i was driving to work today, and for the first time ever, i heard my girlfriend's song on the radio.
no, it's not the first time i've heard Christina Aguilera on the radio, but it's the first time that i could actually say hey, that's my girl!.
she is amazing and i'm glad i'm the lucky one who got to get to know the real her, the her that laughs way too loud at the tv and loves to scarf down mcdonalds with me on my lunch breaks, and the girl who is amazingly sensitive and caring underneath it all.
anyways, the season premiere of that 70's show is like September 17th or something. I don't know, as prepon she is far more competent when it comes to our show than i'll ever be.
being back on the set and taping the new season is great, when august comes around and we head back in for rehearsals, it's almost like school is starting again, and you get to hide Ashton's wardrobe and switch his robe with Mila's so that he's slightly exposed in more ways than one, and tell Wilmer he needs to pack his belongings and leave because he's being deported, all over again. I love my cast and I love my girlfriend. I also love my dog and large cheese pizzas from dominos.
what more can a guy ask for?
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[11 Aug 2002|05:04am] |
DUDE-
So are Laura and Erika doing it?
Because that would be like, a major turn on.
Oh, and do I still have a girlfriend? Someone fill me in.
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[05 Aug 2002|03:14pm] |
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I had a good day.
Did Dawson kill my cast?
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i just got back from christina's, and before you go thinking anything, remember she is a lady and so am i. i mean, wait. i'm a gentleman. yeah, that's right.
i got there and we were both too tired for a movie i think, because we both kept dozing off. you know when you are holding hands, and you let go for a second to rub your nose or itch a scratch, and you go to hold her hand again and it's just like this tingly feeling. i really like that. shut up.
anyways, we feel asleep on the couch and when we woke up it was about 9:00. so i took her for breakfast and we sat on the beach and just talked for a while, about her past, about my past, and about our families. i think that christina is a little misunderstood by some people who have negative opinions of her. she is a great girl with a huge heart. not to mention an amazing voice and she is just plain beautiful. really, i don't know what she sees in a guy like me.
there is my sappy i like christina post. jesus i feel like i'm in 8th grade again. so kill me.
What she said: Life is good.
P.S.: Ashton where in the hell did you run off to?
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